Reconstruction

Intr`o zi te voi sparge in mii de cioburi si te voi lipi inapoi dupa bunul plac. Nu vei mai semana cu ceea ce ai fost dar vei fi tot tu. Vei fi o statuie din cioburi. Apoi umplu cu grija golurile, te modelez, te conturez si te imbrac in hartie. Asa vei fi invelit doar la suprafata, vei fi imbracat doar ca sa`ti ascunzi goliciunea, nu si sufletul. Nu vei mai putea ascunde nimic si nici nu te vei mai putea inchide in tine. Hartia nu ar tine, s`ar rupe. Daca ti`e frig, voi fi acolo sa te incalzesc. Daca vei vrea sa depui efort nu vei putea, trupul tau fragil s`ar darama. Asa nu vei putea sa te fortezi prea tare. Daca vei avea nevoie de ceva, voi fi langa tine sa te ajut. Te va durea, vei suferi, dar iti va fi mai bine asa. Te vei obisnui. Ai incredere in mine, iti va fi mai bine asa.
Ma apropii de tine hotarata, te lovesc, te fac praf, un morman de cioburi ce se imprastie la picioarele mele. Acum sa te pun la loc…dar parca piesele nu se potrivesc. Nu`mi iese nimic. Nu stiu ce sa mai fac. Nu stiu tot timpul ce vreau. Credeam ca m`am gandit la toate dar m`am trezit cu un morman de cioburi in fata mea cu care nu stiu ce sa fac. Ce mizerie am facut…ce fac acum? Iau un faras, matur cioburile, le arunc la gunoi si ma prefac ca n`am facut nimic?

The end

He was 55, she was old too
They lived at a farm near Kathmandu,
Alone with no neighbors to disturb them.
There were only fields surrounding them.
There, in the middle of nowhere
They didn`t live in luxury but they didn`t care.
They were happy to be together
Knowing they won`t live forever
They treasured every moment
As it would be the last one spent.
They were living a peaceful life.
In the morning he woke up, checked on his wife
She was still asleep so he gets up fast
Goes in the kitchen and makes her breakfast.
Meanwhile he turns on the TV
And he`s shocked of what he`s about to see.
Demons killing everyone
Not having mercy on anyone,
Killing rich and poor,
Cities that don`t exist anymore,
Desperation everywhere.
He knows they`ll soon be there
They won`t escape from them,
It`s only a matter of time until they find them.
He calmly closes the TV
And goes to prepare their tea.
By the time breakfast was ready
He could already see
Hundreds of demons outside the window
And hears his wife`s nose blow.
Smiling, he asks her to sit down and eat
And gives her a lovely treat.
She has no idea about what`s happening
But she has a funny feeling.
He looked out the window again: “They`re almost here, oh crap!”
“What`s that dear?” she said
“I said let`s go take a nap.
You know…we`ll be young and healthy again
Loving each other like only we can.
When was the last time I told you I love you?
What would I have done in this life without you?”
Then the demons slammed the door
But they couldn`t do anything anymore.
They were both laid down the bed
By the time demons broke into the house
They were already dead.
He poisoned the food so they can die embraced
Not killed by demons, tortured and slayed.
He didn`t want her to be scared
He couldn`t stand seeing her tortured.
Before he died he looked into her eyes”
“Today we`ll rule the skies”

Confuz

Daca stau sa ma gandesc nimic nu e concret
Totul e confuz, nu stiu ce sa cred.
Ce simplu e sa confunzi prietenia cu iubirea
Atunci cand vezi un prieten si simti ca valu te ia
Te duce fara sa stii unde te opresti
Si nici nu te intreaba de asta iti doresti.
N`ai ce sa`I faci, te lasi dus de val
Poate la capat te asteapta printu pe`un cal
Sau poate ajungi in ultimul hal..
Si daca iti gasesti iubirea?
Nici asa nu e bine, tot te pierzi cu firea.
Atunci cine era cel ce credeai k ti`e jumatatea?
Acum valul a trecut de ziduri si`ti darama cetatea.
Fortareata unde ai inchis sufletul tau
Crezand ca te invata rau.
Fara ziduri imprejur si cu sufletul liber
Vei lua decizia cea buna…sper.

Distance...

“I wonder if you`ll ever remember me…over a few years. What do I mean to you? Do I mean anything? Do you think of me at all? Do you see me in your dreams? Does my image appear in the back of your mind when someone talks about love? Do you ever miss me? Or feel like hugging me? Any emotions at all?”
And she falls asleep. Somewhere, in the other part of the country, a boy can`t sleep and thinks of a girl.
“You mean so much to me. You`re the face I see when I look in the mirror, I think of you all the time. I see you everywhere when i`m awake and when I fall asleep you`re still near me, in my dreams. I wish you were here so I could tell you all these things. I just wish you knew…”
And he falls asleep. She wakes up the next day. Still no sign from him. Clearly he doesn`t care. He forbot all about me. So much silence and emptiness…but i`ll bring an end to this. He wakes up.
“How weird. I was having a dream of her but suddenly it stopped. I don`t see you when I look into a mirror anymore…whatever I do I can`t see you in the back of my mind like I used to. I can`t see you anymore. I feel like I lost you. Were are you? What happened? I miss you…”

Day one...

Acest blog a fost creat intr`o zi ploioasa de iunie, intr`o camera in care se auzea in fundal o muzica lenta si stropii de ploaie ce se loveau de geam. Mi`a luat aporape 2 ore sa scriu ceva, imi venea greu sa ma dezlipesc de geam. Era o furtuna cu tunete, fulgere si un curcubeu...am sarit sa iau aparatu sa fac poze dar nu se compara cu ceea ce a fost la geamul meu...poate multora din voi nu le plac zilele ploioase dar eu nu pot sa nu admir frumusetea ei...sau calmul de dupa...sau culorile curcubeului...sau cum se plimba un baiat de brat cu o fata sub aceeasi umbrela...sau...